2009 has been a year of facing my attachments, my habits, and even, my addictions. This is the first of four posts about my experiences facing the choice between being mindful and mindless.
Celexa: Although I was forcing myself to take it everyday, I guess one would say that I was actually addicted to Celexa. I didn't wake up in the morning feeling like I needed it to cope. But when I decided to stop taking it, my body revolted. I was physically addicted to it. And perhaps, even psychologically addicted to it, since I never seemed to have a problem remembering to take it, right on time everyday. A habit turned addiction, perhaps. And, honestly, it was an addiction I had no idea I had. I was surprised by how hard my body fought to try to convince me to take more medicine.
I made the choice to be mindful, but it was not an easy one. I had many more addictions to deal with before I could completely let go of the potential need to take Celexa again one day.